LiveInTheTwilight

I hate watching people because I always forget to breath When I came back I ran up the stairs So that when I stopped running I could feel my heart I would know it was there and hadn't been choked By my eyes

I KNEW I WAS AT MY LIMIT WHEN MY VOICE WENT SORE WHEN MY EARS GREW DEF WHEN MY VISION BLURRED WHEN I COULDN'T BREATH I FELT THE HOLE IN MY CHEST WIDEN AS MY CHEEKS BECAME WET AND I LOST THE ABILITY TO STAND I COUGHED IN WILD SPASMS FROM THE MUCUS IN MY THROAT I SCREAMED WITH ALL MY MIGHT SO LOUD MY HANDS SHOOK MY FEET BOUNCED AND THE EARTH BENEATH ME TREMBLED MY HEADACHE REACHED THE BACK OF MY BRAIN AND I LOST ALL RESTRAINT I BECAME A SCREAM THE boom AFTER THE EXPLOSION THE pop IN THE ROCKS THE howl OF THE WIND IF ONLY I COULD AS EASILY BE BLOWN AWAY THEN I WOULD NOT FEEL THE HOLE IN MY HEART WIDEN AND THE PA

I watched As my dreams shattered My acid blood Splattered As if nothing ever mattered T’was the wake of my demise I can’t change On a whim It’s embedded In my skin Even when my light is dim Something I can’t disguise Your control Over me Causes You Overbearing glee But if you could only see What I see through these eyes All that once Was dear I hold closer now With fear Because it’s no longer clear If blue is the true color of the sky I can’t hold on Much longer Compared to me You’re stronger Consumed by your hunger Soon dead and buried I will lie My love for you Was real

The pool of my words is too shallow It’s very small and shallow I wish I could tell you how I felt Exactly And you would understand The first time I said it That you could be in my head Desperate to be happy Desperate to free But I can’t reach you I can’t reach The light has burned my view But I’ll never forget the depths of your eyes The depth my shallow words could not describe And your eyes Those deep blue eyes Your beautiful, deadly oceans Will forever be branded into my memory Don’t spill your salty tears There is no reason for the ocean to mourn the death of the sun The moon will forever ris

It’s too bright It’s much too bright That blinding light It’s much too bright Understand Your stare is blank It’s much too blank AS if my heart Could never The depths of your eyes Fish Like a dead fish Glassy Reflecting light That’s much too bright Bright Ignite It aches My chest it Breaks With the ache Of a thousand pains Tonight I’ll leave tonight Good-bye My dead fish Good-bye

I cannot find the words It's as if they hide in some Strange corner of my mind The pencil in my hand is of An alien make-up While my hand both embraces And rejects its advances When will my brainwaves reach My finger tips? When will my mind open Itself and reveal its secrets To me? I wonder, If my mind plays games With me As if it's its own person Separate heart, separate identity From me When will we unite and become One? Or will we ever for that matter? No one knows me better than My own mind yet I don’t Think I know it I’m sure it will consume me Someday and I am not afraid If it fate for me To pe

watever happened im convised it was for a reason and i realize who is who and what is what and that things werent all that great but could have been so much worse. U prob dont read these anyway but someone else might. the point is your wrong and doing things over wont mean anything to anyone but you. things are great now. i never saw the explosion i just felt the distance and even now im unsure but u know how i am and im not gonna make the first move or act like i care at all because i wont care until u show me that u do. and i highly doubt that moment will come because my pride is too big to write your name down in this note knowing especial